to be honest i just realised that i blog reallly late. example it's like 4am now and im supposed to be sleeping.

being alone at home kinda sucks, i thought this would be the ME time for me but still, i cant live alone. woke up at about 12pm and i lazed around watching tv till like 5pm. met fai after that to go to giant hypermarket to get some ingredients for the cake im gonna bake. yeap the occasion is thanesh's 21st birthday, yeap my bubu is getting old indeed but i love him. he doesnt know im baking for him.

he made me really mad when i texted him to wish him a happy birthday, i was late by like 50 minutes but i had a really good reason. im working on his birthday card that im gonna give him. i bought this really hugeeeee card at memory lane for like 22 bucks. the card now is filled with love poems, yes i know its supposed to be a bday card but i cant help but express the love i have for him.

i was cracking my head on what poem to write, till i thought of the beautiful poem shane west read to mandy moore in a walk to remember.


"Love is always patient and kind..."



Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous. Love
is never boastful or conceited...

It is never rude or selfish...It does not take offense, and it
is not resentful.

Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but
delights in truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to
hope, and to endure whatever comes.
~1 Corinthians 13:4-8




well its actually a verse from the bible instead of a poem. but watching that movie was so beautiful that the poem/scripture was the highlight of the whole thing for me. i'd love to recite that on my wedding day. okay back to the where i was. thanesh pissed me off cause he said that i forgot his bday. i've really been working hard for his homecoming/birthday and he dare say that to me. it was heartbreaking. but yadayadayada we made up and everything is alright now.

i really wish i could make it a big celebration for him, i mean c'mon he's turning 21. but yeah i guess a small me and him time would do the both of us some good since he's been away for so long.

on the other side, my sister called from langkawi. she seems to be having the time of her life. she brought some good news for me too. she bought me tons of cigarettes and flavored ones too! wee!
damn old habits die hard. cant wait till she gets back.